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Time to post of course....Whats new with everyone? Nothing to report here I guess. I've been busy working at the Royal Pacific, but haven't been back to the Contemporary since then. I'm still employed with Disney though, and I will hopefully pick up a shift there sometime soon.


Ok so here's something new. I got a new phone. I know right?? I had the same phone for like 2 years, and while I liked my phone I needed something new and more advanced. I got an iPhone and I love it! I have text messaging which is wonderful, and some apps that I am addicted to (such as checkers..no lie it's my favorite thing on there). I just love it!

Hmm...I'm going to Michigan in June, in like less than a month. I haven't bought my ticket yet because I'm broke so I need to do that after pay day. I'm also going to plan a trip to connecticut for July which is where my sister lives because her fiance is going to be gone for a month (he's a military man). I'm excited. Connecticut is off the ocean so that's good enough for me.

I've also started looking into going back to college in the fall at Valencia. They have a hospitality management program which is what I would do, of course. I have a campus tour scheduled for Thursday and if I can talk to an adviser I'm going to ask about the credits I got at macomb and see if they will mean anything here. I really hope so, otherwise all of that time and money has gone to WASTE! I'm really excited about going back though. I feel, right now, like I don't really have anything going on in my life and I really miss college and having social interactions outside of work. I'm hoping to meet new people and make some new friends as well. Right now, I am planning on only doing one class because I still need to work full time and I know that I can handle that. If I can do that well and have no problems I can try and do 2 classes for the following semester. It really depends on what classes I already took that will transfer over, if any, that will determine which class I take but right now it looks like i will take the intro to hospitality class, even if the one i already took is okay. it's always good to have a refresher and it's been awhile since i've gone to school so I'd like the class i take to be easy.

Things with Chris are going well. We are happy and doing very good. and there's really nothing else to say about that..lol

Well that's all i have going on right now. I will write an update whenever I deem necessary!

OMG almost 3 months, what's wrong with me??

I keep meaning to update my blog, and now I have some free time due to not being able to sleep so I shall write!

Nothing is super new with me I guess. In my last blog I mentioned that for my birthday Chris let me get a kitten. I named her Bailey and she is the MOST beautiful thing on earth. I love that girl with everything. She is bad, believe me, she is very naughty and I have to yell at her a lot but there is nothing quite like walking in from a long day at work to be greeted by a ''meow!!!!?!?" (which to me translates to "HI MOMMY HI MOMMY HI MOMMMY!!!!!!!!" he he he). I feel like having Bailey here at home with us makes this feel more like...a home! Chris has gotten used to her, even though I never thought he would, it only took a few weeks for him to treat her like his own. He's very good to her and feeds her and such. I'm happy about that.

I also got a new job. I know right?? In previous blogs I have mentioned my employment with Disney and how I felt cheated because it was basically impossible for me to move into a full time position due to being seasonal, even though they were hiring in full timers who had more employment time with Disney. I got so fed up with it, and it got to the point where i was only getting maybe 2 days a week at the most, and I can't live on that. I started applying for jobs everywhere, had some interviews and finally landed my first REAL full time job!!!! Ok maybe it's not a career, but I enjoy it. I work in the recreation department at Loews Royal Pacific Resort in Orlando. it's a beautiful hotel, large and south seas themed. I work as a pool attendant and it's quite a basic job, but it keeps me occupied. I'm trying to make goals for myself so I can move up with the company eventually. I'm hoping by like December or January (when it starts getting cold again) I will be able to move inside working at the front desk. And then I'm just going to wait and see what happens from there. That's my plan right now though. I like what I do for now, it's interesting having a job that I've never done before and working outside has its benefits (like a killer tan...which I kinda have, considering I AM a michigander at heart and at first glance ha ha ha!) but I know in July i'll regret saying that once i drown in my own sweat. ugh!

Ummmm...Honestly I wish I had more to say...however, I don't really and I think i'm going to try and go back to bed now. I should update this more often....maybe I will.

First post of 2010

Well, we made it. 2010 is finally here. I can't even believe what an insane year I just lived through. 2009, I have to say, was definitely the most interesting, challenging, adventurous, wonderful, exciting year of my entire life.

2009 was a year of many firsts for me. some ridiculous, some not so much. My first time on a roller coaster. My first time at basically all of the Disney theme parks in general. My first time moving out of my parent's house...my first time moving out of MICHIGAN...living on my own with girls from all over the country...my first time working a LEGIT job. my first time falling in true love. my first REAL apartment (disney apartments barely count). my first time to california. my first time driving cross-country. my first time moving my sister out of my parents house. my first christmas without my family. It's been insane and very intense but it's made me a stronger person in the end. I can't imagine 2010 comparing in any way, but i know it will be amazing!


so yesterday was my birthday. i turned 22. tooooo old. yet i feel soo! young because everyone at work is like 23, 24, 25...etc. chris spoiled the shit out of me. it makes me feel really bad about what i did for his birthday because i feel like i did nothing compared to what he did, then again, he has a lot more money than i do so whatever. he got me a Crock Pot which is awesome, and also he surprised me with the most amazing thing ever. he took me to Petco and let me buy a bunch of things and gave me permission to adopt a kitten from the Humane Society. i seriously cried. i was so happy. i bought what i needed and we went to go see ''Its Complicated'' at the movie theater. after that we came home because it was freezing and raining so we hung out until our dinner reservations at Citricos at the Grand Floridian. Food was amazing of course, service top notch. they had a personalized menu made for me along with a birthday button so everyone acknowledged me. it was awesome. then we came home for CAKE! chris made an amazing cake for me, it was sooo nice and he spent a lot of time on it. so it was basically the best birthday ever.

today i went, first thing in the AM, to the Humane Society to get a kitten. of course i couldn't WAIT!!! lol. i found one that i absolutely loved, shes 10 months so a bit older than i wanted but shes so playful and loving. i named her bailey after much thought. chris has never had a pet before so he's like walking on eggshells around her. i'm sure that will change though. she's very sweet.


anyway, thats it for tonight. i have so many things i could rant about but i will NOT get into that right now. good night and good riddance.

Well it's been awhile

I seriously suck at updating. Okay so here's what's been going on with me. Still working as seasonal at the Contemporary. I've had a couple job interviews which has been exciting, nerve-wrecking (wracking?), scary, stressful, you know.

My first interview that I had gotten was for the Orlando World Center Marriott, which was awesome because it's right across the street from where I reside, and it's also the world's largest Marriott. I couldn't even believe I had an interview there considering how difficult the application process had been. Marriott does all their applications through Marriott.com now and in some of them they include a timed test where you read descriptions of situations and you have to answer how you would handle them. I did this while I was at work, while trying to assist guests, but apparently I did well because 12 hours later they called me for an interview. The interview was very difficult as well. I was interviewed by four people who were managers and supervisors so that was intimidating, but I still felt REALLY good about it and I wouldn't have changed a single thing that I said. All my answers, I believe, were top notch. The interview lasted almost a full hour, which is probably the longest interview I've ever been to. 24 hours later I got a call asking me to come in for a second interview. I was ecstatic. The second interview was not as long..maybe 10-15 minutes. Good thing I didn't drive any more than 2 minutes, otherwise I would have been angry. There were only 2 interviewers this time, both who I did not meet previously. I felt that interview went pretty well as well, and I once again spoke with the hiring manager and she said she hoped things would go well for me and I'd hear from her later in the week.

Yea I did hear back later in the week...not even 24 hours later I received one of those ''Thank you for taking the time to come and talk to us, however, we have decided to pursue another candidate who more closely meets the requirements...'' awesome. It WAS pretty devestating, I can't lie, I was pretty upset because I had no idea where I went wrong. i did SO well! i gave it my all!

After spending some time thinking about it I decided that it was probably for the best. This hotel was probably too much for me anyway, considering it's so large in size and it would probably be overwhelming for me. I don't know how many rooms it has, but the Contemporary only has like a thousand so I'm not used to working in a hotel that has like...four thousand plus a million convention spaces. So I applied at a few more Marriott hotels, thinking why not. I actually DID receive a call for a phone interview from another very reputable Marriott, the Marriott at Grande Lakes. I did pretty well with the phone interview, and also received a call from the hiring manager at the Fairfield Inn at the Marriott Village in Lake Buena Vista, as well as a missed call from the Ritz Carlton. So many opportunities, yet I wasn't feeling on top of the world like I thought I would. To be honest, I love my job at the Contemporary. I know I've said Disney isn't my future, but I do enjoy my co-workers at the Contemporary and I am comfortable with what I do. It's like going on a year that I've worked there and some people are starting to feel like family.

Anyway, I wound up never returning the call to the Ritz Carlton, but I did go in for an interview at the Fairfield. The Marriott Village in Lake Buena Vista is very impressive. It consists of a Springhill Suites, a Fairfield, and a Courtyard. Altogether, it has about 1100 rooms. The properties are REALLY nice and updated, and in my interview I learned that you become cross trained to learn all three front desks. To me that was awesome because you get so much experience in the different Marriott brands, rather than JUST learning what the Courtyard is all about or just the Fairfield you learn all three. The interview itself was not as intimidating as the one at the World Center was, but it was still a challenge. I felt more comfortable with my interviewer, mostly because it was just one person and because she seemed very genuine. The interview lasted about an hour, and she said I'd hear back from her later in the week.

well I did hear back, 24 hours later i got an email stating the same ol, same ol ''we found someone better sooo....just forget it''. once again, I was pretty disappointed to read that and see that ONCE AGAIN my efforts have not paid off. I'm trying to look at it from the perspective that there's probably just other people out there who have more experience than me. I mean to be honest I don't have a lot of front desk experience. Only a couple months at the Courtyard, and that BARELY counts, and then about 10 months with Disney. They are probably able to find people who have years of experience.

So for right now I've decided to just keep at it with Disney. Even though it's not where I want to be forever, it's where I want to be right now. In about 9 more days I will be eligible for full time and right when that moment happens you better believe i will be at Casting trying to get this worked out so I can become full time with some sort of job security lol. I've been lucky, most weeks I get 5 days to work but this week i got very unlucky and only got THREE days to work. I was able to pick up a shift yesterday so that's a little bit better. i signed up for additional hours for the next 2 weeks so hopefully next week I'll get some overtime, if not 5 days.

So basically that's all that is new with me at work. chris and i painted the apartment last week and it looks really good. i love it. so nice to not have boring white walls and no personality to our rooms. other than that, my personal life is in shambles. i have gotten to the point of having literally no friends. i have coworkers that i like talking to at work but nothing is progressing from that...most of them are college program and they'll be leaving before I know it, so why do that to myself. that was one thing i was looking forward to about getting a new job was finding people who are permanately in orlando so i could make some friends. it's so hard to make friends, seriously. chris's birthday is in 2 weeks, followed by thanksgiving like literally the day after, and before you know it it will be christmas. i need to start working like 80 hours a week if i want to afford all of that. fuck my life. ahhhh.

well I'm off of work for the next 2 days so hopefully i'll find something to do. i have no money, no gas in my car, it's too windy to go outside and sit by the pool so I'm just going to relax. I need to anyway, I've been sick for a couple of days and so im just trying to get over that so relaxation sounds like a good idea to me. I'll write later on..byebye

Back in the Sunshine State!

Well the last couple of weeks have been really pretty good. I flew home to Detroit to visit my family on October 1st. It was really good to see my parents and my sister and my friends and of course, my kitties again. It was super cold though, didn't really enjoy that part of it.

I was there for about four days. On Oct 5th me and my sister drove 13 hours to Groton, Connecticut to her new apartment that she is now sharing with her fiance Brett. It's not bad...I still like my apartment wayyyyy more but they have a fireplace and a washing machine so it's alright. Luckily they are on the first floor so moving all the stuff inside wasn't as painful as I thought it might be. It sucked though, 2 nights sleeping on an air mattress. Chris arrived the following day around 3, and the four of us went out to dinner and crashed early that night so we could all get an early start the next morning.

Chris and I left Connecticut around 5:30 on Wednesday morning and drove 10 hours to Virginia Beach, VA. We stayed at an incredible hotel, Springhill Suites by Marriott. I wasn't expecting it to be awesome but it was. It was one of the best hotels i've ever stayed at. The best part about it was our oceanfront room directly on the atlantic ocean. it was AMAZING, especially at night you could hear the waves crashing on the shore and in the morning the sunrise was incredible. We were going to stay a second night but I looked at the weather forecast and it was saying that the following day was going to be 70 degrees there and that seemed a bit chilly to me and I wanted to enjoy the ocean so we decided to move onward. So we drove six more hours to Myrtle Beach, SC and stayed at a full service Marriott Resort & Spa. INCREDIBLE HOTEL!!! Just beautiful. Our room wasn't oceanfront this time, but the hotel is situated right on the beach so from the room we did have a small view of the ocean which was cool! We spent some time on the beach and had an amazing time. tried to get another night there but they were fully booked so we booked a night at the Marriott at Hilton Head Island which is about 5 hours away from Myrtle Beach, right at the border of Georgia. Wow..it was beautiful. trees and bushes and flowers surrounding the front entrance all the way up to the hotel and on the opposite side was oceanfront. our room was definitely an ocean view but with some trees in the way so it was technically a standard view. if we had been up a floor or two it would have been amazing. so we spent another day at the beach, hit the hay early and got home yesterday around 3PM. even though the vacation was incredible and super fun, it feels so good to be home again, in my own bed.

and that's basically all that's been up lately. just living the dream, you know. har. i kid. i really hate that i have no money now, but what can you do? Hopefully i won't be struggling too bad trying to make rent and my car payment and whatever for November.

by the way, whats UP with these record high temperatures? it was like 95 degrees today...mid October. After being in Michigan however, i'd rather be hot than cold. :o)

Going home soon, yay!

I don't know why I say I am ''going home'' next week. I'm going to Michigan next week. I live in Florida. So why do I still call Michigan ''home"? I'm not the only person who does it...I have co-workers who have recently gone back to visit their hometowns and said they were going home when they live here, so I guess it's not that weird.

Anyway i'm very excited to visit my friends and family! I will of course be staying with my parents while I'm in town and I will hopefully see as many people as I possibly can while I'm there. I'm so excited to see my cat too haha. MILO!!!

The reason I'm going home to visit next week is because of my sister. She is moving to Connecticut to live with Brett, her fiance. So my mom doesn't like the idea of her driving to Connecticut by herself and was going to go with her and then fly back home but I know that my mom probably can't handle all that traveling, and it gives me an excuse to take time off work and hang out with the fam so I told my mom I'd drive with her and then fly back to Florida.

I'm really not thrilled at all with the idea of my sister moving in with Brett. And no it's not because they aren't married or because they haven't been dating for very long because that would be hypocritical on my part. I totally believe in living together before marriage. My sister is 18 years old, however, and I think that at that age you shouldn't be making decisions to leave home and start a new life just yet. I'm well aware that many many people straight out of high school go away to college, but that's completely different. They are going for their education and more than likely the school is not a thousand miles away. I've made all the points I can to both Emily and Brett about why they should hold off on moving in together, and so has my mom but neither one of them will budge from this decision. It's just one of those things where I could go on all day about why it's wrong but i won't.

Anyway mostly what I'm not looking forward to is when me and Emily leave to go to Connecticut. My mom is going to die. She is already depressed about me being gone because without me she doesn't really have anyone to really talk to. My dad, forget it. My sister spends most of her time talking on the phone or online with Brett (who currently lives in CT but he's from Michigan). I was the one who would hang out with her and watch movies with her and just be there most nights when she got home from work. But she's starting to let go more, and forgive me for leaving, and now just as shes starting to adjust my sister decides shes going to leave too. I just feel so bad for my mom. All she has left is my dad, and for anyone whos ever met the guy knows that living alone with him is like .....well it's too early to think of a good analogy to that one. ugh. it's just heart breaking to think about. And then I started thinking about how i need to visit home more often blah blah blah and then I remembered that whenever I DO go home to visit after this next trip, its not going to be the same because one of the most important people in my life won't be there...my sister. Things will NEVER feel the same way again.

As much as I love my life here in Florida, sometimes I can't help but truly miss the way my life used to be. And I know I've expressed this before but it's true, it doesn't really get any less painful the more time goes on. I miss my old jobs; even after i left MJR it was only natural for me to still visit and hang out with my old friends every time. I miss school and classes (i'm sure i'd take that back in a heart beat though, haha), I miss everyone who used to be in my life, I miss having a FULL life. I don't feel like i have a full life anymore. I really don't and I really hate it. But I do have it good, I constantly remind myself that I am living my own dream and i need to just remember that.

Well i think Ive bored myself back to sleep..har har...Enjoy

a post! awesome

Well, it's been almost a month since the conclusion of my college program. I was super worried, as all my followers would know (all six of them) about finding a new job to replace mine at the Contemporary. I had 2 job interviews but no call backs with those and I applied to many many other hotels as well but nothing. I managed to talk to a manager @ the Contemporary to be statused as ''seasonal'' for the time being. The stressful part about being seasonal is that there is no guarantee for any hours. This was extremely scary to me, thinking about how I could possibly only work one or two days a week. Lucky for me it's been going really well, I've been putting in MORE hours as seasonal than I was as an intern which is good. My managers seem to understand that me and Chris, though we are only seasonal, are willing to do whatever it takes to remain active with the company and know we are willing to work any amount of hours we are offered. Last week I put in 57 hours and Chris put in 54 so we made out pretty well. For right now, I am probably going to remain at the Contemporary until I figure out what I want to do. I think I'd like to stay on as a full timer for now, at least until I finish school and then I can decide. Lucky for me, I have time to make any more life-altering decisions.

Other than that, not a whole lot is going on. Me and Chris are doing well...what else would you expect, we're awesome. Things are a little crazy on the home front back in good ol' Michigan but I won't get into that. I'm missing everyone back home and thinking about popping in for a visit next month if I can manage it.

Well that's all the updating I have for now...I'll write again momentarily.

Well, it's all over.

From the title you can pretty much guess what this entry is about. Yesterday at 11AM I officially finished my Disney College Program for the spring 2009. How sad :( My last day of work (as a CP) was on Wednesday. Knowing that I am staying in Florida and staying with Disney (for the time being anyway) made my last day way less sad than it would have been if i was leaving to go back home, but what was most sad was a couple of my friends leaving to go back home to their own ..countries. They will be greatly missed.

Anyway, I got switched over to being a seasonal employee which means I have to work at least 2 days a month to stay on board. Thats easy. While I'm in the process of finding a new full time job I can get scheduled and pick up shifts which isn't the best because there's no guarantee of any hours, but it's better than not having ANY money. Next week I picked up two shifts that were approved and I picked up a third shift but it hasn't appeared on my schedule online yet so once that is on there i'll have a total of 25 hours. Not alot considering I am used to the usual 40 hour work week but for picking up all these shifts it's not really bad.

Anyway, before I close up this blog I'd like to give my final thoughts on the Disney College Program, since that is what this blog is all about.

Going in to this experience I expected a lot of things. I expected that I would come to Disney and have the most unforgettable experience. I expected to make tons of friends from all over the world and absolutely love everything about my job and I also expected that in five months I'd come back home and go back to living my life the way it was before...because I'll admit my life was pretty darn good. I had an amazing family and the greatest friends ever and I truly loved everything about my job and school. Well my experience differed a little from what I was expecting. I wound up not really making that many friends; sure I enjoyed my co-workers and we had a couple get togethers at my place but they aren't my best friends forever. I had expected to have great room mates but I wound up having some of the shittiest room mates ever. I fell in love. I met the person I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. I've started my life with him already. I moved to Florida with no looking back at my life in Michigan. I came down here for an internship, to learn a little about myself and about life and came down only to go back to say ''Well, that was fun, but it's time to get back to what I was in the middle of doing before''. Instead my whole life changed completely.

For those who are thinking about doing the Disney College Program, i'd say it's a wonderful opportunity to learn. You learn about yourself and about the world. I know I sure did. I learned that women are harder to live with than men. I learned that no matter how much you try to go out of your way for someone it's never enough. I learned that the less money someone spends on a vacation the more they expect out of you. I learned if you want to go camping don't come to Disney World. About myself, I learned that I can do things on my own. I am self sufficient. I am responsible (well, not in all aspects but I do try). And with that, as a hospitality student and worker in the industry, I have become stronger and more knowledgable. I can now deal with the most difficult of guests, try to assist with ridiculous commands (yes, commands) and not take things personally when I'm being shouted at for absurd things.

Well, that about wraps up this entry. I will probably continue to use this blog even though I created it strictly for the college program only; quite obviously I wrote about a lot more than just that and I enjoy writing entries every now and then. So do expect me to continue writing. Thanks for reading..have a magical day.

time to update....

Alright so in 9 days my college program will be over. I CANT BELIEVE IT. I am FREAKING THE FUCK OUT RIGHT NOW! Why? Because I don't even have a job yet.

Today I had a job interview with the Hilton/Waldorf Astoria. VERY exciting. The Waldorf Astoria will be the first other than the one that is in New York, so how cool is that? I had an interview for front desk, I somehow managed to wing that one out of nowhere. My original interview was for Laundry Supervisor and Houseperson but they felt I was more qualified for front desk so I interviewed with like THREE people. I am not sure how to feel about it to be honest. I want to say that it went really well, because I thought it did. The interview itself was awesome, I think I did good with that part. They seemed to be impressed with my Disney experience as well as my accomplishments at the Marriott. However the last guy who i talked to from the Hilton part told me that for the front desk they are mostly hiring people who have experience with Hilton, bringing them in as supervisors and then later hiring more people to work. He said they'll be in touch with me, which doesn't ever mean something good. ugh. Even if I was hired, they won't be starting the training process until September which means I would be out of a job for like a month anyway. Stressful, is it not?

The only thing keeping me SANE right now is the fact that I have a job interview TOMORROW for Embassy Suites-Lake buena vista. The position is front desk and the hotel looks pretty decent. It's actually a PART of Hilton which is interesting..i was not aware until i saw it on the website today. So we'll see how the interview goes. I'm feeling confident. I was really nervous about today's interview because the hotel isn't open yet so they had interviews for thousands of people going on. very very intimidating i must say. this one sounds like a one on one thing so I'm a little bit more at ease! I am really really REALLY hoping she tells me tomorrow whether or not i will be hired. I'd love for her to say that I'm hired and that I can start next Thursday lol. That would be perfect. I'd be SO relieved. I can't remember exactly but i'm surely hoping that this position was full time. i need the money so bad. i'm so strapped right now, i can't afford ANTYHING. I feel like i work quite a few hours but i'm barely scraping by making rent and my car payments and insurance plus other living expenses such as gas and groceries. i guess thats life for ya. i really wish marriott would have called me though. i applied at like seven of them. I guess tomorrow will be a huge deciding factor if I want to go ahead and contact a few of those hotels about setting up a job interview. just hoping things go well tomorrow so i cant stop worrying about it!!!!!!!

anyway thats all i wanted to say for right now, I'll update this later with my news on my job interview(s) and also to give my final thoughts on my experience with the Disney College Program.

2 updates in one month, wow!

So I felt like updating. Shoot me.

A lot has been going on lately but nothing surprising at all. Friday me and Chris moved into our new apartment. We technically didn't live here til Saturday but we began to move things in on Friday night, which I'm really glad about because during the day on Saturday it was SO hot, I can't even imagine trying to move everything up three flights of stairs in that heat. It took us a couple days to get everything unpacked and get our furniture built and so on but at this point things are starting to look up. The apartment is about as good as its gonna get for the time being. We're just waiting on our new bedding and thats it, though eventually we want to paint and decorate more because the walls feel so bare.

Anyway, other than that, not much is new. I LOVE living here with Chris. It's my first time living with a guy other than my dad so it's a little like...I don't really know what to expect. But things are going so well, our relationship is even better than before and things are just great. it's so nice having someone that I love to come home to at night after a long day of work, and I love having someone to take care of.

So next week....another week at the lovely fort wilderness campground. NOT looking forward to it at all!!!! I'm SO upset that I'm still there. I really really want to go back to the Contemporary. My program is almost over, i only have four weeks left and i'm not going to be able to see my friends there much longer. Next week we're ALL deployed so even if i WAS there I wouldn't be able to see anyone I know. I've picked up a few shifts in the last few weeks that I haven't been working there and everyone is new and I don't know anyone!!! It's sooo weird, people don't even know who i am! i hate it!! i really miss the way things used to be before we hired like 40 new people for the front desk and before we were all being deployed all over the place.

sigh. the courtyard still hasn't called me about a job. kind of upset about this, I really wish I knew if they'd call me for an interview or not so I can apply at other places. but i really want THAT job because its full time and a set schedule and that is so rare and ideal for someone in my situation. i don't see why they wouldn't give me an interview, I have adaquet experience and I work for DISNEY! helloooo. so we'll see. if they don't call this week I'm going to send out a million resumes to all the hotels in the area because in four weeks I am jobless. fuck!

alrighty well i'm out for now, thanks for reading and I'll write later!

Seven more days til Freedom

So what's been going on for the last month or so since I have written? Well, not a whole lot to be honest. I can't believe how fast time is flying, it's crazy. Things aren't really going anywhere with me right now but at the same time, everything is changing.

So it's the first week of July. Last month me and Chris leased an apartment in Orlando at this place called Camden at World Gateway. It's a VERY nice apartment and with our Disney discount we got it for pretty cheap compared to what the normal rates are for that particular model. I really love it. It is in a nice location, gated community, has vaulted ceilings, burber carpeting, tons of storage space, a screened in balcony facing the woods and a like-new kitchen with black appliances. it's like a dream. It has felt like a lifetime that we had to wait to move in, but we are finally moving in there in seven days. I can't even believe it's almost here. I haven't started packing yet but I plan to do that sometime...I'll probably start on Sunday. I was going to yesterday before work, but I got lazy, and I was going to today after work, but I got home later than expected. So it's going to have to wait. Most of it is last minute stuff, anyway. The important stuff is taken care of, such as the utlities and internet and cable and everything. I owe that all to Chris, he did everything and I feel bad but I know that he is more than willing to step it up and be the man in this relationship and I also trust him more than I trust myself to do it. If I were living alone, it wouldn't be an issue but i'd just rather him deal with that than me. We also purchased all of our furniture and have spent the last six weeks arguing over bedding that we hate. It took three times to find an apartment we love though, go figure.

Work is work. I've spent almost every single day since I last wrote in my blog NOT working at the Contemporary. It's terrible. They started deployment with some of the other interns who started around the same time as me...they deploy everyone according to seniority. We'd all started approximately five months prior to. Two of my co-workers were sent off to the Grand Floridian, Chris was sent over to Fort Wilderness Resort and Campground (and i laughed hysterically for awhile after that), and I was sent over to Wilderness Lodge (which I was excited for). Turns out we all hated it and wanted nothing more than to go back home to the Contemporary. Wilderness Lodge wasn't BAD, the guests were mostly nice and overall just not a bad experience but it wasn't the same as being with my friends and people I know so well. The costume is ugly too, not very comfortable and I looked like a freakin Native American Puritian. Disgusting. Week was half over, new schedule was coming out and I looked forward to seeing Contemporary back on my schedule. Not so much. we all got ANOTHER week of deployment...everyone's location remained the same except mine, I was sent over to Fort Wilderness Resort & Campground with Chris. I was kind of excited, to be honest. I heard that it was really laid back there, nothing like the Contemporary where the guests are rude & stuck up and rich as hell. So I was excited for the relaxing atmostphere, filled to the tee with guests from all over the country looking to unwind and relax in the beauty that central Florida has to offer. I mean, really, the rich and obnoxious don't go to Disney World to camp, they go to the upper class resorts and spend a ton of money on a freakin' hotel room.

Anyway, long story short I've been deployed at Fort Wilderness for going on four weeks and I'm SICK of it. I HATE HATE HATE it there. The staff members are okay, I've come to like a lot of people that I work with, but what I really hate is the guests that I encounter. I think they are actually worse than my Contemporary folk. Most of the campers that come bring either a tent or some sort of RV or whatever (heck if i know the first thing about camping) and they come to Fort Wilderness a couple times a year, if not more, and mostly all of them have a VERY specific site that they MUST HAVE. MUST MUST MUST HAVE. And if they don't have it, or anything else on their stupid list, they throw a HISSY FIT.

Today, has been a terrible day. I went to work expecting to not have the greatest day, but I wasn't expecting to have the worst day of work since I got to Disney. Its the fourth of july weekend, so we all knew what was in store...a very busy day filled with very impatient people. well you would have thought it was Halloween Eve instead of Fourth of July Eve the way people were acting.
One couple in particular that had their kids with them. The Conrad family. Their kids had to of been humiliated the way their parents were talking to me, and later to a co-worker of mine. I don't recall which state they were from but the way they acted I'm sure they were from New Jersey. Things started out fine. I noticed in their reservation it stated that the guest had requested the site 418. I looked in the system but there was absolutely NOTHING available in that area, every single 400-site was occupied or there was a due in and I couldn't change it. It's always noted in a reservation if a guest had requested something and it usually always says ''not guaranteed'', like this particular reservation. So I got the keys and map for the guest and explained where their site was, which was 520. ''Wait, wait, wait a second!'' starts the wife, ''We have site 418!''. I told her that I saw the request in the computer but unfortunately requests are not guaranteed, we try to accomodate the requests best we can but it can be very difficult, especially on a holiday weekend when it's very busy. She didn't let up and claimed she called over and over again to confirm her site would be 418. Back and forth we went until she was practically in my face.
Even though I know there's no possible way they could have this, I ask very politely ''Do you have a printed confirmation that states this information?" The husband pulls out his confimration number. I said ''No, I do not need a reservation number, i have your reservation up here. What I want to know is, do you have printed confirmation stating that you are staying in 418?" The woman tells me to pull up her DECEMBER reservation and to look at it, supposedly it says that she is to be assigned 418 when she comes in on July 3rd. RIGHT. I wasn't going to bother looking at that because what would that DO?! haha!! I explained to them t hat we don't pre-assign the sites that far in advance, only the day of and sometimes the day before. what does the woman yell at me? "YES THEY DO!" as if she works here or something. So I said ''No, they don't.'' haha. She was getting really ticked off at me and she made it a point to say my name out loud as if to remember to tell a manager later that i was rude to her. Like I care. She was terrible. Both of them were *yelling* that this was unacceptable so I asked what other loops they'd be interested in. everything they named off to me was fully occupied. They either wanted the 400 loop or the 100 loop, which is not even in their category at all. I literally had to list off every room we had in both of those loops, and tell them the status of each and every site. I wish that I could describe in words the rudeness of these people. Telling me that what i was doing was unacceptable; that I fail at doing my job; that I don't make *it* happen for them EVER; why should we even bother asking what they want if we arent going to give it to them, etc etc. All I did was try to calmly explain how things work at the campground, and why they couldn't just TAKE a spot that was already occupied. The woman, with that whole black-girl attitude was yelling ''If I drive around this campground in the 400 loop, I KNOW i'm going to find empty sites, and here you are telling me theres NOTHING available, I KNOW I'm going to find sites that aren't taken''...it was like talking to myself trying to explain that just because theres nothing AT the site doesn't mean there isnt someone OCCUPYING it. As a last resort, I called the back office operations support team to MAKE SURE that there was nothing in either of the areas they wanted to be at. I was told no, nothing, and told these guests SORRY, tough luck. Just as these guests are peaking at their very worst a co-worker of mine is coming out to break me so I can go on my much deserved break. I told him the situation and basically told him there was nothing we could do, but the guests were yelling at me at the same time and they weren't going to leave without getting what they wanted. They actually said ''We pay all this money, we DESERVE THE BEST! WE DESERVE WHAT WE WANT!" what-ever. as if we're making them pay any more than the other guests are paying. they also told my coworker that they think the other guests are paying us more money so we'll give them the sites they want. haha. I couldn't take their ridiculous hassles anymore and left my coworker to finish dealing with them, and even he said they were ridiculous beyond belief.


I know that story is a little boring, but when it happened, it was terrible. I felt like i was treated with such disrespect, and all for doing my job. if it were that one guest, not a big deal, but that was my EVERY guest today. it gets old after guest #5. i just don't understand how its so hard for the guests to treat us at the front desk like we are people instead of robots. we're doing what we're trained to do, not only to benefit them but to benefit the entire resort as a whole. it's ridiculous that these people are too thick headed to see that, but I wish I was able to tell them all off because it really makes me mad. Its not like this is a first, I have days like this all the time, i'm constantly being bitched at or put down or insulted due to things that are beyond my control. I just don't understand the world today....people are so greety and materialistic. I'm so over Disney. I hate working for a company where people have such high standards and expect that we're going to kiss their ass constantly. it's so annoying. I miss the courtyard days like today. i miss working at a hotel that i love where the guests are friendly and treat us with respect and actually care about us as people. i can't wait to get back to a hotel like that again, where people see us as real people, not machines or slaves.

Speaking of which I applied for a job working at the courtyard by marriott in lake buena vista. it's front desk, full time, set schedule. i turned in my resume and filled out an online application so i'm hoping to hear back in a couple of days, if not i'll call them and see what i can do because i would LOVE to have this job. the location is good because it's right by my apartment and its for a company that i love. So..wish me luck with that.

Anyway i'm going to bring this to a close now, and i'll update more after we move into our apartment and after i find out more about the job situation! have a good one

It's my dad's birthday!

Oh happy day! It's May 28th, 2009 and my dad is now 57 years of age as of now. I can't believe how fast the days are FLYING by.

Anyway. Things are going well here in Florida. The last month has just been me working my tail end off and it's just ridiculous because I never get to see Chris due to our extremely opposite work schedules. It seems to be the permanent fix; I work mornings and he works evenings. We got to spend some time together last week, we flew to Detroit to visit my friends and family back home. He was nervous as one would be, meeting a ton of new people, especially my parents. My mom LOVED him. She absolutely adored him. I knew she'd like him so it's no big surprise to me. It was such a relief on both ends though, especially mine because everything just went so well the whole weekend. He seemed comfortable around my family and they seemed to feel the same way around him. All in all, it was awesome in that respect. It was also awesome to see my friends again, who I missed soo bad. It was really hard to think about leaving them behind, knowing there are some people I could never see again or not see for a very, very long time. What makes it so hard is that in Florida I don't really have any real friends yet...I did but a lot of them have already gone back home or we drifted away. I have my co-workers and they are great but it's not the same as having a big group of people that you can hang out with for hours and hours and just live the best nights of your life over again. Even when I do make friends here it won't be the same...we can't reminisce about the ''good ol days'' like I can with my friends at home. I know I have to get over it ...thats life...it happens...but overall it was wonderful being at home, being at a place I know so well and love. Such a change from being here, where everything is still so new and unfamiliar and the only things I can think of when I'm here is about work.

The best part about us going up there was retrieving my car and also a ton of items that I left at home when I moved here. We made excellent time getting back to Orlando from Detroit, I was very pleased with myself! and we didn't get lost AT ALL!! So now that i have my car here, my life is much easier I think. I can come and go as I please, I can run errands and not worry about how its going to take an hour and a half to get four items from Walgreens. I've been able to do the things i need to do.

Speaking of which, me and Chris have spoken more seriously about living together after we finish the college program. Even more recently, we've decided that we are going to go ahead and move in together, and even more recently than that we've decided that we aren't going to wait until August 14th to do it. We started looking the last couple of weeks online at apartments and we visited a couple different ones this week but it seems like everything is so far from work, or in a shitty neighborhood, or too expensive, etc. However we found one that we like and today after work i went up there to take a tour of the apartment and it was amazing! i liked it alot! so I think it's the one that we are going to go for. we just need to do a few things in order to lease it and thats it. we also recently started looking at furniture...ahh, so many expenses!!!! it's making me super nervous knowing that in the next six weeks i'm going to have to worry about my car payment, rent & utilities, groceries, gas money, furniture, etc etc....i only make 7.65 an hour!!!! i'm sure one day, when I'm making a good living, I'll look back on these days and wish I had it so easy again but really, BRING ME THE MONEY NAO! One day at a time I suppose. Anyway, I can't wait to live with Chris...I can't even imagine how great its going to be coming home late and night and curling up in bed with him...I'm so in love with this guy, more than I've ever been with anyone else and there's nothing I want more than to spend every night in his arms. We barely get to see each other often due to work schedules but at least those eight hours every night together would be the best eight hours of my every day.

Well other than that nothing is really new here...same ol same ol!!! i wish something would happen...it's soo dull here. ugh. ohh well it's been raining alot...other than that...thats it!!! Have a fabulous day and thanks for reading.

We're nowhere, and it's now

Well, today is the first of May. An exciting time of year back home because that means warm weather, spring time, flowers, birds, people start uncovering their pools, we see days where it reaches 77 degrees and you'd think people of Michigan have never seen a hot day before because people start turning on their sprinklers and running through them like they are five again. I love, love, love a Michigan May. This year, however, I will not be celebratiing my Cinco De Mayo in the Great Lakes State, I am in Florida, as I have been...and don't get me wrong, I love the hot weather. I love when it's steaming hot outside and I walk into an ice cold air conditioned building; the second the air hits my face I feel like this is where I belong. Love it. But I do miss the way the earth looks when spring emerges after a long, dreadful, cold, icy, bleak winter. it's like everything becomes alive..it reminds me of the scene in Plesantville when the world is slowly becoming full of color..you see the first flower turn red and it's the same way when winter finally makes it's escape for the season and spring comes and the flowers pop out overnight and the trees suddenly are born again with fresh leaves. It's absolutely stunning and I almost feel sorry for those who have lived down south for their whole lives and never experienced such beauty.


I officially extended my employment with Disney until August. For now that is all I know. I know that if I absolutely needed to, there is a possibility of staying until January but I don't want to. I will be still working at the Contemporary Resort which is good, i was slightly worried that i would be moved elsewhere. More importantly Chris (the boyfriend) was able to extend his employment as well. There were some major battles with his extension, but everything worked out in the end like I knew it would which only makes me more sure that we were meant to be together. sounds cheesy, I know, i know.

well basically that's all i have to say. my life is unfortunately not that exciting. haha. well, it's not boring either, but just no new updates for you. hopefully after michigan i'll have something to write about ...ta!

Often I feel inspired to write a blog, or things happen to make me think ''I should BLOG about this!'' but at the end of the day when I sit down at my computer to write a blog, my mind is empty and I feel like I've got nothing to say. Such is life. Woe is me.

In six weeks, I will be home in Michigan. I'm soo excited. I can't wait to see my friends, family, and my cat. I'm excited to be in a place that I know so well, where I am so familiar with all of my surroundings. I'm bringing Chris home with me, to meet my friends and family and get a glimpse of what my life was like pre-Disney lol.

Next week will be amazing as well!!! Me and Chris are taking a four day vacation to San Francisco!! I'm a little nervous about the airplane thing...which I shouldn't be, I should be just fine but I'm nervous, I don't like flying. I'll survive. I haven't had a real vacation in like 10 years .It's going to be amazing not having to worry about anything like work or whatever. and plus it's california, i've never been there and I've always wanted to go! I can't wait! Four full days with my boyfriend, I can't see a better way of spending my time.

Speaking of which, things are going so well with him! I love it..it's just awesome how good our relationship is. I've never felt like this about anybody, ever, and I'm sure that I've said that before but this time it's for real. I can't imagine my life without him, and as amazing as it is to have someone incredible like him, it's also scary because neither one of us is guantanteed that we'll be able to stay here in Florida. Something could go wrong with one of our extensions and then what do we do? What if they deny my request to stay until August? At this moment in time I can't afford to be quite on my own just yet, I need to continue to save some money before that. I'd be forced to move back to Michigan. For some reason, even though I know that I need to be logical, my heart tells me that everything is going to work itself out in the end. I don't want this to end up like how things were with Jeff. I thought that just maybe we'd be able to make it through the four months without each other and that when I came back home we'd be able to start a real relationship but that didn't happen, and I would hate for anything like that to happen with me and Chris if I had to go back home for a few months and come back down in August to live here.

Anyway, nothing else to report. My room mate is moving out next week...I'm so happy...I get to have the bedroom and bathroom to myself for like a whole month. she's kinda weird and messy so I'm glad she'll be gone.

My job here @ the contemporary is going well I guess. I have my good days and I have my bad days. Guests easily get on my nerves, especially lately because they ask the dumbest things. I mean, really? One of my co-workers said yesterday ''I believe the guests leave their brains at home''..i agree. I have a really big pet peeve of people asking ''is this where i check in?" when I'm standing at the front desk, clearly labeled ''Check in/check out''. I get that at least twice a day if not more! and just a variety of other issues.. my tolerance for people is pretty high at this point. I don't think I could work for Disney for my whole life to be honest!

hmmmm soo yea that's all thats going on right now. nothing exciting unfortunately. but i will write after something good actually happens...i just feel bad I'm not keeping up with this thing like i should!!!!

NAUGHTY BLOGGER

Okay so today is March 15th, 2009. I am scheuled in exactly 2 months to depart from Orlando to Detroit, to head back home for the rest of forever.

Okay, not forever, but back to live with my parents for what will FEEL like forever.

However, as I stated in my previous blog (i think...maybe not...) I'm planning on staying here until August. However, it's not really completely up to me whether or not I stay. I have to apply to do so. Tomorrow is the first day that I can do that so I plan on doing it as soon as I can. My new departure date would be August 14th to head back to Michigan.

Why am I making the decision to stay here? aren't I missing my friends and family, my car, my cat, being in a place that I know like the back of my hand (and it's Michigan, so literally...the back of my hand...) going to school, my old job, etc etc? the answer is YES! I am missing all of those things terribly!! Today I saw a girl running from her apartment to the main entrance of Chatham Square to meet her parents and she hugged them excitedly and for a few minutes there I really wished I could see my mom because I miss her so bad. This is the first time in my life where I've been away from home for any longer than just a few days. I've never gone this long without her. I also miss my cat, which I know i've put in like seven posts, because he is the most amazing thing ever. Plus all the other things I do miss, but then I look at how much I love it here and I don't want to go back so soon.

I really enjoy my job, even though sometimes I want to STRANGLE my guests and dangle them from their room on the 11th floor facing the Magic Kingdom side since that's the only room they want in the entire hotel. Sometimes I want to lock them in their room over in the South Garden Building and MAKE them sleep there because that's what they are paying for. Regardless, I love it. I wish those guests knew what it was like to share a bed with someone in a twin size instead of listening to them complain about not getting their king bed. I love my fellow coworkers, I feel like it doesn't really get much better than that. The only sad thing is knowing that once May/August comes, we will all depart from the Contemporary, going back the lives we led before coming here. I also really love the weather here, but that's a given to anyone who lives up north. I don't miss the winter depression that comes every year from November to March, I really don't. And I definitely don't miss waking up at 5AM to scrape the ice and snow off my car before I leave for work. The last few weeks that I spent in Michigan after school ended i spent half of my days laying in bed, NO motivation to do anything.
Florida is so beautiful...and I know Michigan is beautiful too, especially between the months of May-October, where there is life and green, and miles and miles and miles of nothing but farmland and once fall hits, the green disappears and it's anything but ordinary with the trees in their orange, yellow and red glory. That's something that you can't get here (that i know of...maybe you can...shows how often i come here).

but either way, I just feel like this is a place I could live. And i've seriously considered it. Before I got here I always said I wanted to leave Michigan and live in the south somewhere where the weather is nice and there's opportunities for jobs. I haven't done enough reserach on Florida's economy (nor do i really want to...) to know how it compares to Michigans, but i have a strong feeling that in tourism/hospitality, Florida wins. Obviously, working for Disney, I can see that that alone brings in a crazy amount of people from all over the country, and then theres still all the people who stay OFF Disney property (it's way cheaper...) for not only Disney but the other tourist attractions in the area. I KNOW things are bad in Michigan right now...first hand experience my last five weeks at the Utica Courtyard I worked maybe ten hours a week because occupancy was at an all time low. I worked those nights where we had 16% in house. I don't want to go back to that ever again. How will I ever pay off my bills and save money? if I DO return to Michigan (theres a 50/50 chance right now) I have a back up plan for myself, but I can't rely on that, and it's not exactly the most fun back up plan either. at that point, who knows how much longer i'd be stuck in michigan for? Once i'm back there, it's going to take a lot for me to find my way back here again. I'll have to wait til I finish college, and by THAT point who knows where I'll be in my career? I could be just starting a really good job that I can't just walk away from, and then I could fall in love and that person might be stuck in Michigan for whatever reason (good job, undying devotion to his mother, etc) and then BAM! I'm STUCK THERE FOREVER!!!
Nothing else really new to report. My grandfather is in the hospital, on his death bed, it'll be any hour now that he goes. It feels really weird being here and not there with my family at a time like this, but there's nothing I can do. I have obligations here to fulfill. if it were my own father, completely different story. I haven't even seen my grandfather in like four years. He doesn't remember me. He's had alzheimer's for like five or six years so he doesnt really remember me or my sister. My mom said the other day she saw him at the hospital and she was sitting with him and she asked him ''do you remember Allison and Emily?" and she said that he smiled. very strange indeed..maybe he does remember. Yesterday when I talked to her she said his breathing was very soft and his eyes looked like they would never open again. I talked to my dad for the first time in two months yesterday as well. It was really weird...and very small talk.

So i've been living in my new apartment for like 3 weeks...it's going pretty well I think! My in-room room mate said like one word to me in the first seven days, but now she actually talks to me sometimes so it's less awkward. Another one of my room mates has like this on/off switch and she is like...sometimes nice to me, sometimes a real bitch so I've been careful lately. Everyone else is great. I love it. I don't miss my old room mates at all.

what else what else...oh & you'll be happy to know that I've been dating someone for a little while. I don't know how long its been...long enough for me to feel like for the first time in my life I found something real. Even after a long, stressful, exhausting day, he is there to make all of that not matter anymore. I don't want this feeling to ever go away.

Ok so i just wasted like an hour of my day writing this out, and I need to finish my laundry and house work. So I'll update again when something actually happens...have a lovely day.

My biggest flaw

I would like to think of myself as an experienced dater. I haven't spent too much time in long term relationships, most of the men I committ myself to turn into just short term flings. Which to me, has been totally okay...I've had a couple heartbreaks, but no permanent damage...it just means that they were not the one for me. I'm not into the whole ''dating just to date'' thing. It's not about experiencing new people and having someone by my side just so I won't be alone...it's about finding the one who fits my shape, fills the empty space in my heart and makes me feel complete.

Where am I going with all this nonsense? I have no idea. I was just thinking today that my biggest flaw when it comes to having a relationship is honesty. And I'm not talking about lying to my significant other, or hiding information. I'm talking more about raw emotion, real feelings, expression of love and devotion. I am awful at that. Steve always said that the reason he never felt close to me was because I was so bad at telling him how I felt, that he never felt like he knew the real me or how I felt about him. It's awful to know that the feelings I had, even though they weren't as strong as his, were overlooked because I was unable to tell him what was going through my mind. It almost felt like a chore to tell him how amazing he was, or how I couldn't sleep that night because I was up thinking of him and wishing he was there. It would be a chore to tell him all the things I felt and thought, and I'm not sure why...fears of rejection maybe? More like I would feel like a freaking cheeseball...Little things like that...not even the big 3 words that we all *love* so much...just little moments of honesty that put your heart right out there. I'm SO bad at that. I always said my biggest flaw (other than the honesty bit, but ties in with it) is that I care so much, but I am really bad at showing it. Its something I've always wanted to improve on. When someone is hurting, I want to cry with them, but I don't. When someone is spilling their heart out to me about how they can't imagine life without me, I want to scream out that I feel the same way, but I can't. I think this flaw might seem small to some, but to those who have experienced it, it's something that can break a relationship and I don't ever want to be the cause of something great failing just because I'm too much of a wuss to spill my guts.

What's different about him? What's so different that at this point I would write my feelings in the stars just so he would know I feel....he makes me feel alive inside, he makes me feel like I'm home, and this is where I want to be, with him, nowhere else, and I can't imagine going back to feeling anything else. he makes me feel honest with myself and with him, and that is more than I've ever been able to do with anyone. I'm starting to see how people fall in love...I can't wait.

I'm sick of having regrets...I'm sick of wishing that I did things that I never did, saying things I never said, allowing myself to feel things that I wanted to feel only because I was scared of something. Looking at it, WAS i scared of telling ryan the things I wanted to say, was I scared of what steve's reactions would have been? I'm done with that, I'm laying out all my fears and emotions and all my energy on the line for this one guy hoping that giving it my all will help me to see the true meaning of life, and of love.

Until next time...

If I could tell the world one thing....

It's pop, not soda.

Oh, and also, the first language of the United States is English, so...when I don't speak YOUR language, don't flip a nut.


Life in my new apartment is going well. A part of me feels like an intruder, almost like I don't have the same rights as the rest of them do because I didn't move in when they all did but I'm getting more used to being here. My room mate...is weird as hell. In the last six days that I've lived here she has said ONE single word to me. She's pretty rude. I decided living with women is difficult. Not soley based on my experiences but also of my friends down here who have a lot of problems with the people they live with. I'd like to believe I'm pretty easy to live with. I let people do whatever they want and it takes alot for something to get to me. Why can't everyone be like this? Well, if we were all like that we would have no leaders, no bitches, no dominatrixes..etc etc. I think my room mate has never heard of glass cleaner because the mirror and the chrome in my bathroom looked disgusting when I first moved in and still does. I need to tackle that like...today. Also, all of her shit is everywhere. The other day I moved her towels over to make room for mine, and I also folded them and I come into the room to find a note on the mirror that says ''Leave my stuff where it is!'' Okay bitch.

Anyhoo...I miss my cat dearly. Even though I'm most content with how my life is right now there are some days where I just want to grab ahold of him and squeeze him and kiss his cheek and tell him how much I love him, and that nobody can take the place in my heart where I hold him. No matter what kind of shitty day I ever had, just him alone could make everything bad in my world disappear for a little while. Even though he hates when I do that, and you can tell by the look on his face, part of him loves it and you can tell he loves me when he comes and curls up on me late at night when I'm trying to work on my laptop. I can't even count the number of times i'd be laying in bed writing a paper and he'd come sit on my keyboard and just stare at me with his pretty green eyes. yeah, i miss him.

Something worth writing about...

So basically a lot has happened in the past few days since I wrote, but unfortunately not ALL of it can be written on here due to confidentiality agreements that I have signed with the housing management. Even though I highly doubt anyone even reads this thing, I don't want to take chances. So i'll try and give as many details as possible, and i will change names also.


I know in previous posts I have mentioned about NORA who goes fucking crazy over cleanliness in the apartment. INSANE. Like if one thing is left not done she flips a nut. Basically she does that all the time to me and she did it the other night which is stupid because I didn't even use everything and she claims that nothing was washed correctly...which is seriously ridiculous and if I talk about it I'll just get annoyed. Anyway she threw such a fit that we all had to go down to security to write out a statement about what we thought was going on in the apartment. which the only problem I had was with NORA being a cunt. I get home last night around 130AM and theres 2 security officers in my apartment. yeah....I mean I could see if we were robbed, or someone was threatened...but over pots and pans? GET REAL! But yeah I swear on my life this happened. So as I was saying earlier about confidentiality, I can't say what happened at the meeting in here, but basically it was suggested that I move out, and I did just that. Normally it would have taken me about 3 weeks but since this whole shindig happened, I got out TODAY. Not exactly the best day for it...but I don't think I could have lived a single more day with them to be honest. So I also received a call from Casting that my I9 was never on file...which i dont know why because thats impossible....so I had to do that today also. So I've been up since six thirty because of the meeting, and I spent all day running around to Casting and between my old apartment and my new one trying to move all my crap...which there was a TON of it...such a pain. and it was SUPER hot outside today also! It took like four hours haha. Dragging my suitcases up and down stairs when they weight like 40 pounds is not my idea of fun at all...but my new apartment is not bad, the room mates seem very nice and laid back and thats all I can ask for. my in room roommate..not sure about her. she doesn't seem to like life. lol. But I hear shes never home and shes always with her boyfriend so whatever. id ont care. as long as she isn't in my face about things, i'm okay.

So basically to sum up this entry, I am out of shithole USA and now living with new people...hopefully they turn out to be ten times better than my old room mates. they seem like they will be :)


To be honest, when I first started and they were talking about how all of us would probably change apartments at least once or twice during our program, I totally did not think that I would ever do that. I was wrong about that...I also never thought that *I* would turn out to be the crappy room mate!!! i was wrong about alot i guess!! lol...oh well I'm free!!

bad blogger, once again

It has come to my attention that I'm a very naughty blogger. but to be quite honest, nothing is really going on that is worth mentioning, in my opinion. My job is going well...it's not sucking as bad as it was the last time I wrote. Our current and recent convention guests aren't shitty like the others were. So things at work are going well I'd say. Now that we're all trained at the front desk, it's a lot of fun working with the other CP's. I've come to enjoy their company at work and finally I feel like home there. I couldn't ask for more. I also feel very lucky that most of the CP's @ the contemporary aren't retarded because I've come across ALOT of retards since I've got here. People with like half a brain and no idea what reality is. honestly.

Other than working, I don't really do MUCH else. I have NO car, which makes me feel like i'm in prison because I have to rely on others to get me to where I need to get to. I've spent a couple more times at the Magic Kingdom and Epcot but nothing really facinating with that.

I have a decision that I need to start thinking about, quite honestly, I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I'm already going on being here for 2 months, and I only have about 2 more months left to go. Part of me is looking forward to returning home and seeing my friends, family, and my baby milo, and also to going back to the utica courtyard and also having my CAR again. On the other side of it, I'm loving it here and I feel like this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity that I should take FULL advantage of while I'm here. So, a part of me wants to extend my program and stay until August. I really don't know what I'm going to do. I just feel like leaving in just 2 months is not enough time here...I've waited so long to be here and time is just flying by. However, if I do extend, the biggest and best thing would be getting new room mates. lol. So yeah I'm really not sure what I'm going to do. I was all set on moving back home but I just don't want to leave as soon as I start feeling like this is where I want to be. I'm considering flying back home on the 15th since i have a round trip ticket, and then driving my car back down with me for the remaining months. I'm not sure how my parents would feel about that, so first I would have to talk to them. I think that would be most ideal though.

Hmm, what else...we had an apartment inspection the other day...well yesterday. my room mates were going ape shit over EVERYTHING. the one girl is obsessive about cleanliness, and while I like a clean apartment as well, I don't go insane over stupid things like she does. We wound up exceeding cleanliness in our inspection and got what they call ''the white glove'' haha. because of that we received two boxes of chocolate...oh yea! my mom will be proud haha.

before i wrap this up...there is ''sort of'' a new guy in my life. I know right? I told everyone before I came down that I was going to refrain from dating at all because I knew that it wouldn't work out since whoever I meet would probably live far from me...most people I've met are NOT from Michigan. I was doing pretty well with the whole thing but this guy is nothing short of incredible. I thought possibly maybe I felt this way just because I'm feeling lonely here at times and maybe I'm just looking for someone to attach myself to, but the more I've gotten to know him and be around him the more I realize this isn't the case, and even if I was back home, he's the kind of guy that I would want to share my time with. It's hard knowing that no matter what happens here it's probably not going to work out in the end only because we live so far away. I'm not going to think of it that way, and for now doing my best to live in the moment and save my worries for another time.

well I believe that is all for the time being, I will TRY to update this more often but really, my life is NOT that INTERESTING!

HOOP DE DOO! HOOP DE DOO!

Okay honestly if I were you, I'd think that I was a terrible blogger because I never fucking update this thing. The thing is I'm so busy with my ''facinating'' life that I don't have time! But now that I have a few moments, I will update about whats new with me!

mmmkay. now where did I leave off? I don't even know. I left off with my first week of training and evaluations when i started by myself.
Work is going alright I'd say. I've been working some fucking crazy hours and it literally killed me, I came down with some sort of infection or whatever and I lost my voice completely and felt like such crap. i actually called in for 2 days because I knew I would not make it through my shift alive. It was my first time EVER calling in to a job, but I had no choice. What did they want me to do? I guess what I could have done was gone in and waited for them to see how sick I was and then send me home, but whatever. It's over and done. People call in. It happens.

Anyway so the guests at my job have been driving me out of my fucking mind lately, it's insane. We have these guests in for a convention and theres a few I've had from that who have been terribly rude and stepping all over me because they know they can and I can't do anything about it. It's really fucking annoying. I had a lady bitch at me because she was paying for a standard view and we gave her a garden view upgrade and she claimed she was supposed to have a Magic Kingdom view but that request wasnt even in the reservation and we were completely sold out and nothing was available. so she was pissed about that. Then when I told her that her room was in our other building she flipped a nut. Then she found out her room was on the first floor and it was like I killed her child. I have never been treated so disrespectfully at any of my jobs like I have been the past few days. She was yelling and bitching at me even though I called people and tried getting her room changed. I had a few more guests do the same exact thing, throw a freaking hissy fit over something so stupid. and of course, these guests come back down 30 mins later, ask for a manager, and the manager changes their room for them. fucking ridiculous. I think thats the worst part of all. Why can't the manager be like ''umm sorry lady but youre fucked, we're sold out and you are staying in the room we gave you''? no, instead they have to say things like oh sure we'll move your room for you! lets just bump somebody else who was assigned that room and give them your shitty view. It really really bothers me when this happens. So Friday I had a lot of crappy people and I worked until 230 in the morning. I came home at 4 and went to bed and had to be up at 8 the next morning to go to work from 1030 until 230 the NEXT morning, so thats like sixteen hours. After a night like Friday I was NOT looking forward to dealing with more shitty people. And there were plenty of them. I was pretty much dying in the break room by midnight because i was so tired. yesterday i worked a normal shift finally, and pretty much all of my guests were good! nobody complained about their room and only one guest was upset because he couldnt get a king sized bed. tough luck! to be honest, i don't care if you are a VIP guest, you can sleep in a queen size.

Anyway, thats work. Oh yeah by the way I received an award at work for outstanding guest service. isn't that awesome? going on my resume.

Other than that...things with my room mates are going just fine...I don't really see them that often though.

Today I was off finally. me and blair and steve went to blizzard beach, which is a water park and it was a lot of fun! we got in for free so that was sweet. I had never been to a water park before and i really enjoyed it except for this huge slide we went on, I hated it because you catch air on the second bump down and you like vertically drop! i think i INHALED water! it was awful!!! but everything else was so much fun. Later on, we went to this show called Hoop De Doo at Fort Wilderness and it was fucking amazing!! best show i've seen since i got here!! it was a dinner show with unlimited food and drinks for like thirty bucks. good deal and awesome show!! i can't say it enough. i loved the southern/country/can can dancing theme that it had. it was hilarious too!! alot of audience involvement and songs and clapping and the whole deal.

Anyway I'm going to bed now, me and blair and her room mate are going to Animal Kingdom and Epcot tomorrow. I'll take pictures..haha...peace out.